I started today out with such a good feeling that I was on my way. The plan was to go to class this morning and then take the math portion of the Compass Placement Test again. The first time I took it I scored 63 which landed me in Math 050, basically beginners algebra. No big deal. Made an A in Math 050. Found out last week that I still needed to score a decent number on the Compass Placement Test and my A in Math 050 wasn't going to get me into the nursing program.
It wasn't even a thought in my mind that I would score low. I had a good grasp on pre-algebra or so I thought. I took the test; it wasn't ANYTHING that I expected. Word problem after word problem using ratios and percentages. Word problems aren't my forte; I can figure them out generally, but I couldn't today when I needed to. I let the fact that the test wasn't giving me the problems that I EXPECTED get to me and I shut down. I scored lower this time than I did the first time I took the test.
I don't know where to go from here. I can't retake the test. I only have 2 chances and I failed them both. There is no way I can get into the nursing program at Ozarks Technical Community College. I have NO IDEA what to do now. I don't know if I can try to get accepted at another nursing school... do they look at Compass scores? This is all stuff that I have to figure out and fast. Should I continue to pursue nursing? Should I look into another field? I have no other way to describe how I feel right now except to use a horrible cliche. The wind has been taken out of my sails.
I have a lot of praying, searching, and figuring out to do.
UPDATE: I didn't want to type up a seprate blog post for this update. I am one of those people that needs a freak out period. If something I don't expect throws off my plans, I inevitably freak out. It's horrible, but necessary. After the freak out, I always have a calm period where I begin to let rational thought seep back in. I know that this wasn't the end of the road for my schooling, it's just the end of the road for OTC once I get my per-requisites out of the way. I know I am not meant to go to nursing school at OTC. I do feel I am supposed to go to nursing school, but that's in the future. I will cross that bridge when I get there probably during the summer. God has this.