Monday, June 27, 2011
Cry It Out.
Those who know me well, know that I RARELY cry. It takes major emotional distress to induce tears out of me. Yet here I am... in hysterics... tears streaming down my face... for no good reason at all except that I am OBVIOUSLY hormonal. I feel trapped by my emotions right now. The normal for me, is to assess most situations with logic and common sense. Not the case as of late. The littlest thing that goes off plan is a huge deal. The littlest thing sets me off. It really sucks to know that there is something wrong with the way I am behaving, but feeling so trapped within myself that I can't do anything about it. I feel sorry for Dave because he doesn't know how to handle this Amy. He is probably wanting the less emotional Amy back. I want me back too, so I understand. This isn't for a pity party. I kinda just wanted to write this out to get it out, ya know? Since I am having a hard time thinking, I thought writing it all out would help. I am much calmer now and the tears have stopped so I think it did help. Sorry to be a downer. I get so envious of people who can take all situations in stride and have a generally happy take on everything in life. Hopefully I'll be able to reign this in and end this day well.