Week 11 &12

I'm starting week 12. Woo hoo. Getting closer and closer to that magical 2nd Trimester. Week 14 I'm breaking out the non-alcoholic booze. (oxymoron).

So far, my symptoms are really subsiding, I hope this doesn't make any of you severe morning sickness sufferers mad at me, ha.  With Bren and Lindsey my nausea was really strong.  I only ever upchucked once with both of them, but my nausea and food adversions were so strong and annoying.  This time around good smells are overwhelmingly good... Bad smells aren't getting to me as much.  My nausea hasn't been too terrible.  It gets me at night if I have eaten a big meal a few hours before laying down.

Really I would take some stronger sickness because now I'm sitting here worried if everything is ok. I haven't had a chance to listen to the heartbeat yet, so I am just taking my mild nausea and growing stomach as a sign that that things are progressing ok. That and the fact that Aunt Flo has kept her distance.

Some annoying symptoms... Acne. I have been plagued with bad skin throughout this pregnancy so far. See...

EWE! Gross right?  Yeah.  My skin NEVER breaks out like this.  This is me no make-up OBVIOUSLY. ha.
Well.  I have been so frustrated with it that I decided to get actual FACE STUFF.  I went and got some cleanser (I usually just cleaned my face with soap because my skin wasn't picky) and then I got some neutagena sensitive skin moisturizer.  I also got some new make-up.  Nothing fancy, just some Cover Girl, Maybelline and Revlon stuff.  However, it takes me from the above to this...

much more visually appealing, if you ask me.  A really good buy.  :)

Cravings... SOUR CREAM... I love sour cream right now.  I can eat bites of it.  It's so yummy, but I prefer to dip food in it.  I have been making these quesadilla's of sorts.  Corn tortillas with a slice of sharp cheddar salted.  Then a big dollop of sour cream to dip the slices in.

Really, I have been wanting just about any dairy products... except for ice cream.  Not a big fan... but Frozen Yogurt?  That is a different story.  Milk, cheese, cottage cheese (which I normally hate), cream cheese, sour cream... list goes on.  Dairy is it!

I get to hear the heart beat next Wednesday and I am so excited.  So rather than blog on my usual Tuesday, I am going to blog on Wednesday after my appointment.  I am hoping beyond hopes that I come back with a good report and that a heart beat was heard.  Even though I am experiencing pregnancy symptoms doesn't mean that everything is a o k.  A body can miss a miscarriage and still produce the pregnancy hormones which bring on the symptoms of pregnancy.  Why can I talk about this so nonchalantly?  Well, because I am a realist and this is just a way things COULD go.  However, I am hoping hoping hoping that Wednesday will be the day that I hear the baby's heartbeat and it will become that much more real to me.  As unplanned as this pregnancy was, experiencing a loss is so difficult.  I had a miscarriage in my 6th week of pregnancy in between Lindsey and Brendan, and it was a very emotionally taxing time.  I am preparing myself for the best and worst.

So much about pregnancy is uncertain.  The whole time you are one big ball of worry.  Then once you have the baby and it is healthy and crying in your arms its a whole new level of worry.  It just doesn't stop.  It slows down but doesn't stop.